New Day's

This few months happened many things on me...

I am so tired now.. Wanna have a great nap, holiday and vacation..

Still have 3 more months to go..

Haiz~~~

My work is getting more and more...

Don't know why, suddenly I wan leave here.. Wanna forget everythings...

Not because of him...

He not belongs to me and I'm not belongs to him anymore...

We are not belongs to each other...

Before I'm to stuborn to let it go but now??

Maybe let it go is the best way for me to find my happiness...

I wan be cheerful girls like before...

I'm getting busy day by day...

Realise that money is not everything but without money is nothing..

Don't think about LOVE and relationship anymore..

Too frustating, torturing and full sadness...

If like that why I wan let myself so suffer..

Going through my life as simple and full of happiness I can...

Hahaha....

Wanna laugh and smile every second, minute, day and year...

What important for me now is my family, friends and money...

No other things that important from this 3 things...

1 year almost pass again... hope this year my lucky is continuous until the end of my life..

Haha.... So greedy o??

YA.... I need some luck to avoid the bad things that will happen soon...

Too tireddddddddd to take it anymore...

Happy Daddy Day's

Happy daddy day and happy birthday to you, my beloved daddy...

I'm sorry daddy, if sometimes I have made you so mad and sad..

I can't promise you that I won't make you sad and mad coz I'm scare I will break my promise..

Daddy, I just can say that I will try to avoid or decrease the argument with you..

I so miss my child time when you help to clean my ears at the stairs (old home)..

Even today we doesn't celebrate it so luxury but I hope that it will satisfied you with the simply dishes..

Daddy, I want to say that I will always be your beloved daughter no matter what happened..

When I'm child, you always hold my hand coz you will scare that I will hurt..

Daddy, now I'm grow up...It is the time that I hold you back...

Sad, Anger and Sick of It!!!

I don't know what is my fault??

Always me give scolded...

I tell you...

You are making me hate and more more hate you...!!!

Working same company with you is so torturing...

Didn't have such things but you want make that things...

Small things you also want to make it like a big deals..

No wonder why have so many people doesn't like you..

It is not because of your position..

Is your attitude when you talking, asking, answering and so much more...

You made me always scolded...

Not my fault I also need to take it...

Hate working with a people like that..

Boss, not I don't like you or working in your company but haved this such as people,

who want work with you anymore..

Everything you also see from the cover but inside it alread broken and have so many thorn..

Malay pepatah have 1 words is 'bagai gunting dalam selimut'..

My friend asked me to more becareful because of my dumbness that always believe what people say and helping people without any returns..

So dumb...

Unexpected things when I'm coming back home~~!!

Tonight I don't Know I feel lucky or bad luck??

When I'm on the way go back home, I saw a couple making love in their car..

At first when, i want turn my stereng to my left hand side,

I feel like have a car blocking my way...

I'm true....

Have 1 kancil coloured : silver

Plat number : SS 6236 K..

At the back stick a Manchaster United sticker..

Adui...

Then I faster drive my car in front of their car and put high my car light...

See what are they doing...

What inside my mind is what I'm seeing..

OMG~~~!!

They are naked...

And they are blocking my way going back home..

I don't know what I should do...??

Should I call my parents come out or report a police??

Then the guy faster gostan his car..

But he still blocking my way..

Then I keep drive in front la...

At the end he drive pass my car side...

haha...

This unforgetable moment for me...

I'm sure he and his girlfriend is so so so so shame now...

This have some photo for you 2 to refer...!!!

Don't let me see you or your car on my road again..

You making road dirty only...

My Dumpling Festival...

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Haiz~~~~

This year de dumpling festival so boring..

Then my friend ask me go encore there sing K lo...

Luckily that nite have people accompany me go sing K...

Wanna sing until lost my voice...haha...

Sorry grandpa..This year I can't accompany to celebrate this fesstival...

There have been happened so many things..

I promise you, I will celebrate other festival that will coming soon...

Miyaan dea harabujii....

Happy Birthday to My BB Kim Hyun Joong!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Saeng il chuck ham ni da oppa...

I hope all ur wishes will be fulfilled..

I started to become your fans at this year since I watched your movie ( Naughty Kiss)..

After that, I started to chase all ur movie..

For example, Boys Over Flower...

I wish that you can come to Malaysia to meet up for your fans..

Anyway, I hope that all your album will solded...

Sarang heo yo oppa... ♥ ♥ ♥

Keep fighting....aza aza fighting...

22.11.2009

This date is the day you ruined my life...

I hope u will remember this date..

I always tell myself I should let you go in order to get something better but I just can't..

Why???????

My friend said that I'm too stuborn to let our relationship go...

Do I too stuborn??

I also don't know..

I just hope that I can faster forget you..

But I know that is impossible..

How can I forget and forgive the person who hurt me so much..??

Each time you lie to me, you scratched a scar in my heart..

When I'm smilling or laughing, it's doesn't means I'm happy..

If you look clearly, you will know that deep inside my heart is bleeding..

Because of you, I know the feeling of hurt, pain, cry, sad and happy..

Our memory become blur in my mind day by day..

Maybe same as you..No.. maybe there are no our memory in your mind...

It's been 2 years since the day you left..

In this 2 years I always think, what is my fault??

What is the reason u dump me??

Because of SEX??

Then your now that girlfriend can give you la??

If because of that reason, I'm so sorry coz it is impossible I will give my first to a guy who have been lie and cheat on me so many time...

You leave without any single word...

Actually who am I in your heart/head??

Just a stupid girl that you called me all the time???

You admitted I'm your girlfriend but you just leave me silently..

How cruel you are??

You leaving me alone in pain and full of sorrows..

I rather become a stupid girl that don't know what happening around me...

Before, I do my best to fulfilled you rather than doesn't do anything but you do is??

I feel so stupid to trying so hard to put you beside me but the fact your heart is doesn't belong to me and you never loved me.....

Don't ask me why I loved you so much...

I have been tell u, there are no any reasons...

If there have reason, the reason is I Love You...

It is so torture seeing you with another girl walk beside me..

It is too stupid falling in love with a guy who doesn't love u at all..

Because of you, I never try to trust anyone around me..

Because of you, I never try to look and accept other guys..

It's because I'm too afraid they will do exactly the same things as like you done to

me...

I really can't take it anymore...

That feel is torturing every single day, every hours, every minute, every seconds and all the time as long as breathing...

All my things is about you, included my blog and my diary..

Who are you that made my life changed 360 degree???

I wonder how can live happily with other gals when you hurted someone who love you with all the soul n more than her life???

I really want wishing can live happily but I can't..

If I say that I already forgot you, that is lie..

This because you left too many scar in my life and heart until my heart can't recover..

I do believe time can cure everything but the truth is can't..

The difficulties of making decision is not to choose but is let it go...

I can cover my scar with my long pants and long shirt but I can't cover my fake smile and my pain...

Maybe it is not your fault...

All is my fault...

Coz I'm so stupid to loving you...

Coz I'm too stupid doesn't listen to your words..

Coz I'm just your stupid girl...

It's not want losing the memories but it's the strength to let it go...

When the time I should let it go, then I should let it go in order to get something better...

Perhaps in one day....Perhaps...

Elva Hsiao 蕭亞軒 - Cuo De Ren 錯的人 (pinyin) HD Full MV

Love the person who is not supposed to love and wrong...

明之道爱情并牢靠，但是我还是拼命往理跳，
Clearly know that love is not reliable but I still purposely jump into it,
明之道再走可能是监牢，但是我还是相信只是煎熬监，
Clearly know that I keep going it might become a prison but I still believe that it's just an ordeal,
朋友都劝我不要,不要不要，不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑，
My fren advised me not to, not to not to, don't joke around with my happiness
但是做人已经那么累，假星星的想要逃，
But being human already so tiring, it's so insincere that I want to escape,
在爱理连真心都不能給，这才真正的可笑，
Not even being able to give up ur sincerity in love that is really absurd,
爱得太真，太容易禳自己析牲，太容易禳自己沉伦，　
Loving too sincerely makes it too easy to sacrifice ownself, too easy to sink down,
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
Too easy to reckless become covered by wounds
我太笨，明知道你是错的人，
I'm too stupid, clearly know that you're the wrong person
明知道这不是源分,　但是我还芬不顾身，　
Clearly know that this relationship isn't predestined, but I still keep going regardless of the dangers,
可能在爱理面这样算笨，
Perhaps being in love like this is foolish,
可能永远没有所位胃永恨，但是我不顾放芳之理面一点点可能，
Perhaps nothing will ever last for an enternity, but I'm unwilling to give up on this little bit of possibility,
零原笨也不想要悔恨，但是我相信有点可能。。。
I rather be foolish than regret,but I believe there's a small posibility。。。

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丁噹 猜不透 MV (五月天瑪莎跨刀演出)

What should I do??

I should always forget what I should forgotten and remember the things I should remembered...
Happily go through my life without you,
Don't live in the past anymore...
Don't know why the more I want to forget you,you will still appear in my minds..
I really hate it..
Do I still to care about you??
Do I still love you??
Do I hate you or love u??
I also don know what is playing inside my minds..
It's tourturing me everytime, every single minute and all the time...
It'really hurting me...

I'm Not Supposed~~~

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care you,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
I'm in love with you,
When the last tear falls,
I will stand tall,
And hold onto the memories of how you used to be,
They say no matter how dark the night is,
The sun will rises again,
I say lost love makes ones realizes that no matter how bright the day is,
The sun will always set again,
Just because I smile at outside,
Doesn't means that I'm smile inside,
Love is not all smiles and laughs for the moment,
But crying and fighting for what you believe is right and false will last forever,
It's the distance that makes life a little hard,
Two minds that once were close, are now so many miles apart,
I will no flater though,
I'll hold on 'till you're home,
-safely back where you belong.
See how our love has grown?
You're not alone,
I will wait 'till the end of time.
Open your minds, surely plain to see,
Go ahead and break my heart,
It's useless without you anyways.....

Love or Hate~~~

The way to find out if you love someone or not,
Is by talking to them,
The more you talk to them,
The more you either hate them or love them,
Hate leaves ugly scars,
But love leaves beautiful ones.
LOVE Heavenly Full of Graces,
Bless my bf's beautiful face,
Bless his hair that grows so straight,
And keep him away from the girls I hate!!!

Today was just ones of those days,
Where everything I did,
Reminded me of you and every song I heard,
Somehow related to you,
I hate days like today because they remind me of one the things I don't have.

You know you really love someone when you can't hate them for breaking your heart..

I wish you could look at me,
And see the person you loved once,
Instead of the person you have grown to hate.

You know when I hate you,
It's because I Love You,
To a point of passion that unhinges my soul.

I hate having my soul on the other side of the continent,
but I'm so glad it's with you.

Sooner or later we begin to understand that love is more than verses on,
Valentines and romances in the movies,
We begin to know that love is here and now, real and true,
The most important things in our lives.
For love is the creator of our favourite memories and the foundation of our foundest dream....

I really hope that I can forget U....
Y U always appear in front me,when I almost forget U????
I damn hate U..
I more hate U when I saw U with other girl!!!
Y U want like that treat me??
Do I owe U??
If I have owe U, I already paid back to U..
I just hope we won't have anythings relationship anymore..
I hope that U can explain to me,what happened between us??
Y U want like that treat me??
I really never have been in your heart??
What U promised me, 1 things also U keep it...
Y U want said love but actually U're not???
Y U wan keep lying to me????????????????
I really wish to know the truth from your mouth!!! T_____T
Wo wei ni fu qu, yan lei liu wu shu, wo yi ge ren ku, zhi yau ni guo de hen xin fu........
What U do is U don't care!!!

Sad

Everyone said that I should not quarrel with my mum,
if not that satay po, I will become like that meh???
When I started doesn't speak that person,that person should becareful...
I'm not simply maid someone without reason..
When I get angry, I must have my own reason y I'm so angry that person...
Y I want always out is because like that la...
I can't even rest peacefully...
Everyday come back must have quarrel...
I really wanna leave here...
I so torture...
In addition...so many unhappy things happened around me...
Who can understand me???
NO!!!!!!!!!!
No one will understand me...
To day really so bad luck...
Until i saw 2 times the person I hate so much but at the same time I love so much~~~ T.T
Don't y my heart feels so hurt when everytime saw him...
don give me see U anymore...
I really will crazy...

Pretend & Truth~~

Pretend that I can forgive U,
but the truth is I still hate U,
Pretend that I can wising U happily,
but the truth is I want to feel how hurt I am,
Pretend that I can be though go through my life,
but the truth is I still suffer all the time,
Pretend that I doesn't care about U,
but the truth I is I do care U,
Pretend that I forget U,
but the truth is I still missing U,
Pretend that I doesn't love U anymore,
but the truth is I still love U at all.....
If time can be rewind I really hope that I never know u but meet U is a part of my destiny,
I thought that I can forget and forgive U but the fact is I more hate U but at the same time I still love U..
Year passed year by year but I never forget the moments I with U,
With U together, I know the feel of hate, love, sad and happy...
Don't know why among all guys I knew, U are the only One that I really care and your image in my minds is very blur...
Even I can't give U what U but I still hope that now your gf can give U what U wan and what U need....
I really hope that 1 day when U walk beside me, U still recognise me..(that girl almost die because of U....)

Unknow feel

Now is 4.38 am..
I still awake..
I already long time doesn't take a great nap..
I never felt so sad like now,
I never cries so long like now..
Every night, my tears will accompany me fall asleep...
even when he don't want me..
maybe someday when I not at this world already,all my problem will be solved..
say real de,my heart really pain...
I don't why we will become like that???
what is going on???
what is playing inside your minds???
Until now, u still don't know the reason I angry!!
I angry not because U 2 together..
but when U 2 together,why i'm included??
I'm so sad when grandma use the words that is describe me like a bad gal!!
I never thought our relationship will become like that..
I really so sad n hurt when U say me using our imagination..!!!
I never say U anything!!
never!!!
I always treat better than my sis..
but why U want betray me?????
why u want lie to me???
say something bad about me??
U say we go grandma there because of her money, I also can patient U...
Weidy ask me what happened, I also doesn't tell him!!
I really don't know what can I do now??
maybe leave here is the best solution.....!!